I decided to write this post after sitting in church one morning feeling depressed, beat down & bedraggled. Soooo here it goes.... I think alot of Christians or majority of Christianity believe we should be happy or joyful most of our walk. And if we're not then there is a problem with us or in our faith in Jesus. However the bible clearly demonstrates that there should be a time of pain, questions & curiosities as well as joy, happiest and praise. It's ok to be mad at God (many in the bible were) it's ok to question God (many in the bible did) The boundary should be (for me) not to walk away from God or denounce him. Being mad or in pain is part of our humanity. It releases and cleanses, when we don't truly and clearly release it stays within us and turns into a angst & depression. It creates a people walking around with masks and fake grins. What happened to being sensitive & having integrity regarding our emotions and the truthfulness with the many trials of life. Majority of the bible is pain, hurt, loss and devastation. Majority of the bible is questions, curiosities and Lamentations. Laments are found throughout the Bible, especially in the Psalms, Job, Jeremiah, the crucifixion of Jesus and the Book of Lamentations. They are prayers for help coming out of pain that teach us there are things we cannot as people change. This life is a true story of redemption, but not redemption of what man can bring, but only God thru his grace. So what makes us feel so small and why cant we truly be honest before others and men. If we aren't allowed to be honest before God (who knows all anyway) then what we become is a fake, mask wearing hypocrite. I believe there is a balance point between having faith and choosing joy versus crying out to God in desperation, agony and need. However, I think that is based upon the circumstances one faces in their life. Anyways, I just disagreed (surprising huh?) with the sermon.
Here are some lyrics from one of my favorite songs (Stain Glass Masquarde) by one of my artists (Casting Crowns):
Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
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